There...

... is a certain loneliness that one can feel when they stop and examine the world around them. No one is ever really alone, though it can be more or less clear amongst people. Today wasn't a bad day. no... that's not why I'm randomly ranting this dull, almost solemn blog entry. I was thinking tonight, after a long period of nothingness, about where I can go:

First I thought about it metaphorically. I'm not exactly the most organized or motivated person in the world. And I can fully understand that the image I often portray can give the wrong impression to people. It's not sloppiness, it's free expression. Free expression is a 20th and 21st century idea that came out of the age of enlightenment where people realized that, especially in numbers, no man has to live with oppression. In numbers? Safety in numbers, power in numbers, unity amongst a people. And yet, we strive to be apart. Science says that a large majority of people cannot stand solitude. I agree with that. After all, when it comes down to free and personal expression, there has to be someone to express it to, right? So, where can I go metaphorically? It's up to me, but the possibilities for me are near endless right now. I should be happy but it's the same for everyone.

What about physically, then? 'Image is everything and the end justifies the means' is an old idea that also came out of the enlightenment. Many agreed and many disagreed. When it's explained to people in full, a large majority will say first that the end doesn't justify the means and then maybe agree that image isn't everything. However, in the world we live in today, our whole lives are faced with deception and lies and things dressed up to make people happy. I don't know what happens on the inside, but from an educated point of view I can honestly say I don't like it. The image, you see, is a way of keeping everyone in line. Revolution seems like such an outlandish idea that some might say it will never see the dawny sky. The bureaucratic world we live it will not survive, I know I can count on that statement. So, where can I go physically. I'll have to sort through the means and justify what really matters beyond image and status, but- the possibilities again are near endless.

I could go on an on, deeper and deeper into my own understanding of my own morality, but I'd rather let others figure me out. I'll give you my basis, you use your reasoning.


I need a drink...