forgot two! not one! but two books tonight! How I managed that I cannot say but now I am forced to go to school extremely early tomorrow in order to avoid detention.
Wish me luck x.x
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
Monday, April 28, 2008
Oh sleep, why hast thou forsaken me!
As much as I enjoyed the sleep I got when I collapsed at home earlier, I'm kicking myself for taking that nap. The nap wasn't even intentional! But, seeing as I want to finish the homework as fast as I can tonight, this is it for me. G'd night.
-BFavs
-BFavs
Sunday, April 27, 2008
[EDIT] Another New Beginning
you don't even know x.x
[EDIT]Began yet another chapter in my life today, and since I've made some good headway on my homework so far, I figure it'd be fine to tell you about my day.
I got confirmed today. I'll be sure to upload the photos when I get them. For my confirmation name I chose Timothy. Aside from being an apostle and pal-ing around with St. Paul, Timothy is also the name of my deceased cousin so I thought it'd be cool to take that name over. Thus, the church recognizes me with that name of usually with my full name of William Francis Timothy Fava III... okay, the 1st. AND THE ONLY! >;D
Anyway, it was a really nice experience and change of pace from over the last few days.
Afterwards I went over to Alycia's house where we ate food and cake, bounced around on the trampoline, played guitar hero II, played a bit of volleyball, dunked balls from on the trampoline, and had a war with the balls afterwards. Lets see... it was me, Alycia, Erin, Steven, Danny, Scott, Julia, Brittany, and Samantha over there so we had a good time hangin' out tonight. Hm.. I got a bit of cash and some congratulations so tonight wasn't too bad.
Now a little update on my life, since I haven't really been able to or been up to talking about it online recently. As it stands, it seems my group of friends is split in half; between Alex and Stephen; And(Me who was with them and has to side with them morally on earlier issues)Matty and Brittany. Others too, but most prominently us. I may have posted about it a while back when it happened how Alex and Matty got into an argument, and maybe how they haven't spoken to each other much since. Being in the middle is something I'm kind of used to, so here's how it looked from my perspective for a while:
They argued. They both insulted each other. Morally Alex was wrong for what he said to the person they argued over, but I've known him for a long time and know he was just joking and it was his personality speaking. He can't agree that in that situation his choice of speech was wrong. Matty defended his friend who he knew since early grade-school and not alex. Alex apologized via text. Matty may not have got it. Matty says he tried making up by being friendly, but I wasn't really paying attention to that too much.
--FAST FORWARD--
Nothing changed between them. Group is split between hanging with either one of them at one time. I'm with Brittany and Matty and Mike O'. Matty had to go home to do something for about an hour. I'm waiting with Brittany in Vinnie's pizza for Matty, who I called to ask when he was coming back. He was on his way when my brother came down to meet us. He'd called Alex and Stephen. Those two show up, tell us to come along, not knowing we're to be with Matty. I tell him I'm waiting for him. He leaves with everyone 'cept me and Brittany. Matty's willing to forgive him, so long as he apologizes(understandable, but I say forgive and forget. No offense please.)Alex wants Matty to apologize. For what? I can only guess maybe something he said while they were arguing. Other than that he has no rightful reason to expect an apology.
Now here I am. I'm not going to choose between either of them truly because I cannot dismiss a very good old friend for being himself when it really didn't hurt anyone; or another good friend for standing up for what's right. I dunno if Alex is pissed at me yet for the other day(Wednesday), but if he is I want him to forgive and forget. That always works for me, but unfortunately Alex has a habit of holding grudges.
Back to work for me, au revoir.
[EDIT]Began yet another chapter in my life today, and since I've made some good headway on my homework so far, I figure it'd be fine to tell you about my day.
I got confirmed today. I'll be sure to upload the photos when I get them. For my confirmation name I chose Timothy. Aside from being an apostle and pal-ing around with St. Paul, Timothy is also the name of my deceased cousin so I thought it'd be cool to take that name over. Thus, the church recognizes me with that name of usually with my full name of William Francis Timothy Fava III... okay, the 1st. AND THE ONLY! >;D
Anyway, it was a really nice experience and change of pace from over the last few days.
Afterwards I went over to Alycia's house where we ate food and cake, bounced around on the trampoline, played guitar hero II, played a bit of volleyball, dunked balls from on the trampoline, and had a war with the balls afterwards. Lets see... it was me, Alycia, Erin, Steven, Danny, Scott, Julia, Brittany, and Samantha over there so we had a good time hangin' out tonight. Hm.. I got a bit of cash and some congratulations so tonight wasn't too bad.
Now a little update on my life, since I haven't really been able to or been up to talking about it online recently. As it stands, it seems my group of friends is split in half; between Alex and Stephen; And(Me who was with them and has to side with them morally on earlier issues)Matty and Brittany. Others too, but most prominently us. I may have posted about it a while back when it happened how Alex and Matty got into an argument, and maybe how they haven't spoken to each other much since. Being in the middle is something I'm kind of used to, so here's how it looked from my perspective for a while:
They argued. They both insulted each other. Morally Alex was wrong for what he said to the person they argued over, but I've known him for a long time and know he was just joking and it was his personality speaking. He can't agree that in that situation his choice of speech was wrong. Matty defended his friend who he knew since early grade-school and not alex. Alex apologized via text. Matty may not have got it. Matty says he tried making up by being friendly, but I wasn't really paying attention to that too much.
--FAST FORWARD--
Nothing changed between them. Group is split between hanging with either one of them at one time. I'm with Brittany and Matty and Mike O'. Matty had to go home to do something for about an hour. I'm waiting with Brittany in Vinnie's pizza for Matty, who I called to ask when he was coming back. He was on his way when my brother came down to meet us. He'd called Alex and Stephen. Those two show up, tell us to come along, not knowing we're to be with Matty. I tell him I'm waiting for him. He leaves with everyone 'cept me and Brittany. Matty's willing to forgive him, so long as he apologizes(understandable, but I say forgive and forget. No offense please.)Alex wants Matty to apologize. For what? I can only guess maybe something he said while they were arguing. Other than that he has no rightful reason to expect an apology.
Now here I am. I'm not going to choose between either of them truly because I cannot dismiss a very good old friend for being himself when it really didn't hurt anyone; or another good friend for standing up for what's right. I dunno if Alex is pissed at me yet for the other day(Wednesday), but if he is I want him to forgive and forget. That always works for me, but unfortunately Alex has a habit of holding grudges.
Back to work for me, au revoir.
Saturday, April 26, 2008
work work work!
ZOMG LAB AND A LOT OF OTHER HOMEWORK! WHY DO I ALWAYS DO THIS!?!?! >O<
In other news, life has seldom improved. I'm busy formulating how to get everything back on track. I like to fix problems, not wallow in them ;D
[EDIT] This new layout is not to stay. I was just wasting time while doing homework again..
In other news, life has seldom improved. I'm busy formulating how to get everything back on track. I like to fix problems, not wallow in them ;D
[EDIT] This new layout is not to stay. I was just wasting time while doing homework again..
Friday, April 25, 2008
I lied.
Things are lookin' rough for me the next few days. Check Tuesday's post for a glimpse at how life has been for me ahaha. Somethings are a little better, others have blown up in my face. I haven't been like depressed or anything like that, cause the whole thing with these situations that came up recently is just stupid and makes no sense. Some of my friends just gotta grow up and learn not to hold grudges over something stupid.
Thursday, April 24, 2008
<.< >.>
Night off. Previous posts should sum up how things in my life have been.
I know it's against my own policy but I may, may and only may, not post until Monday or so. See if I can't get things back in order. x.X
I know it's against my own policy but I may, may and only may, not post until Monday or so. See if I can't get things back in order. x.X
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
It's just a cycle.
Long post if you've got the time...
I don't have too many bad days but this had to be one of 'em.
For starters, all my plans fell through. Oh and someone's gotta let me know if that's a right expression for saying that things didn't work out cause I was arguing about that earlier with someone.
Let's start from the beginning. I'm really tired and just don't feel like writing anything so I'll keep it blunt.
Plans to go to Boston today with friends, Lauren who I haven't seen in a while was among them. That fell apart literally as I was going out the door to go to the station when I got a call and they said they didn't want to go anymore. I said, "alright w/e, do you wanna meet up in a little while then to hang out?" And the response I got was almost disheartening in how.. simpleton-ish it was.[no offense Brittany ;P] "well we're not gonna do anything..." and.. like... when do we EVER do anything? Don't we always just meet up and hang around? That's all teenagers without money can do anyway.
Oh but I loved the next part, that set me off for the rest of the day. "Why don't we just go to the movies later?" Well, for one, we just got through the whole "I'm poor" thing, and two, it's FUCKING B-E-A-UTIFUL OUTSIDE! >________<
Ug, so with my other friends either working, doing drugs, or playing call of duty all day long, I was stuck at my house looking out at the amazing weather we had today. At one point I just grabbed my skateboard and left my house without saying anything and skated around on my own for 2 hours. Fun stuff lol.
So, I had no plans alllll day.
I thought about my recent stress, mainly stemming from last night, and I think I can see what's happening with my life.
While he was high last night, one of my friends said something really insightful: "We're not a whole anymore" And that summed it all up. So much has driven my friendships apart lately. People are holding grudges, getting into some bad stuff, just plain being jerks, and etcetera. Why it's weighing down on me so much is because I'm stuck right in the middle. I have no grudges, I forgive them when they do their stupid drug shit, and as far as I can tell no one thinks of me as being a jerk at all: I try not to be. But since I'm stuck in the middle of all this and different people all of a sudden don't wanna see other people in all different ways, it's getting harder and harder to be friends with everyone. I miss the times when we were all on the same level with each other. Now there's some people I wonder if I'll ever hang around with again.
People are hypocrites. I try to avoid it and don't do what I don't think(and visa versa)It was almost painful to hear watch two sides and allegiances form between my group of friends over the last two days. We haven't even hung out in a group and this happened. Truly it makes no sense and I wish they would realize it.
On top of all this, I made a recent commitment to myself that I've failed already twice I feel I've made improvement. Unfortunately I fear it has come with more stress and has weighed even more on my lack of being able to find inspiration and form motivation.
I don't do much depressing thinking, but I found myself listening to some depressing jazz last night after a line in cowboy bebob that pretty much summed up all I need to deal with now...
Something along the lines of "Everything has a beginning and an end, life is just a cycle of starts and stops. There are ends we don't desire, but they're inevitable. We have to face them, that's what being human is all about. It's been a fast trip..."
Too fast. Where will our stop be? Or is it just another beginning?
I don't have too many bad days but this had to be one of 'em.
For starters, all my plans fell through. Oh and someone's gotta let me know if that's a right expression for saying that things didn't work out cause I was arguing about that earlier with someone.
Let's start from the beginning. I'm really tired and just don't feel like writing anything so I'll keep it blunt.
Plans to go to Boston today with friends, Lauren who I haven't seen in a while was among them. That fell apart literally as I was going out the door to go to the station when I got a call and they said they didn't want to go anymore. I said, "alright w/e, do you wanna meet up in a little while then to hang out?" And the response I got was almost disheartening in how.. simpleton-ish it was.[no offense Brittany ;P] "well we're not gonna do anything..." and.. like... when do we EVER do anything? Don't we always just meet up and hang around? That's all teenagers without money can do anyway.
Oh but I loved the next part, that set me off for the rest of the day. "Why don't we just go to the movies later?" Well, for one, we just got through the whole "I'm poor" thing, and two, it's FUCKING B-E-A-UTIFUL OUTSIDE! >________<
Ug, so with my other friends either working, doing drugs, or playing call of duty all day long, I was stuck at my house looking out at the amazing weather we had today. At one point I just grabbed my skateboard and left my house without saying anything and skated around on my own for 2 hours. Fun stuff lol.
So, I had no plans alllll day.
I thought about my recent stress, mainly stemming from last night, and I think I can see what's happening with my life.
While he was high last night, one of my friends said something really insightful: "We're not a whole anymore" And that summed it all up. So much has driven my friendships apart lately. People are holding grudges, getting into some bad stuff, just plain being jerks, and etcetera. Why it's weighing down on me so much is because I'm stuck right in the middle. I have no grudges, I forgive them when they do their stupid drug shit, and as far as I can tell no one thinks of me as being a jerk at all: I try not to be. But since I'm stuck in the middle of all this and different people all of a sudden don't wanna see other people in all different ways, it's getting harder and harder to be friends with everyone. I miss the times when we were all on the same level with each other. Now there's some people I wonder if I'll ever hang around with again.
People are hypocrites. I try to avoid it and don't do what I don't think(and visa versa)It was almost painful to hear watch two sides and allegiances form between my group of friends over the last two days. We haven't even hung out in a group and this happened. Truly it makes no sense and I wish they would realize it.
On top of all this, I made a recent commitment to myself that I've failed already twice I feel I've made improvement. Unfortunately I fear it has come with more stress and has weighed even more on my lack of being able to find inspiration and form motivation.
I don't do much depressing thinking, but I found myself listening to some depressing jazz last night after a line in cowboy bebob that pretty much summed up all I need to deal with now...
Something along the lines of "Everything has a beginning and an end, life is just a cycle of starts and stops. There are ends we don't desire, but they're inevitable. We have to face them, that's what being human is all about. It's been a fast trip..."
Too fast. Where will our stop be? Or is it just another beginning?
Monday, April 21, 2008
Life is but a dream
when you're high at least. My friends were in their own dream earlier; after a fun day of going out to eat, enjoying some old scenery, taking a wild bus trip, and camping out in the woods for a few hours with naught but a brush fire and.. well that's when they entered dreamland so... yeah XD
Watchin' anime to pass some time tonight, I'll start my lab tomorrow. Someone oughta yell at my about that lmfao. Doing a bit of writing tonight as well. I wanna see what kinda characters I can come up with personality-wise so I can see wtf I'm working with for real. Also I'm gonna lay off talking about this project in blogger until I get some headway...
Watchin' anime to pass some time tonight, I'll start my lab tomorrow. Someone oughta yell at my about that lmfao. Doing a bit of writing tonight as well. I wanna see what kinda characters I can come up with personality-wise so I can see wtf I'm working with for real. Also I'm gonna lay off talking about this project in blogger until I get some headway...
Sunday, April 20, 2008
Takin' it easy.
At least I wish I could'a done that today. It was uber beautiful out and I was hoping I could have done today since I couldn't go out at all. See, I got up fairly early and signed online to make plans for the day. Lucky me got four different plans to choose from for the day. That's really rare, usually it's me who organizes things. But- of course- "Billy we need to give your confirmation information to the youth minister at the 5:00 mass so don't go anywhere[or something of the like XD]" and so, I spent my whole day inside, and by the time I got home from mass everyone was gone. Yay me. Oh well, there's always tomorrow.
I would have liked to put up a longer post tonight, but there was literally nothing to report on XD
good night everybody
I would have liked to put up a longer post tonight, but there was literally nothing to report on XD
good night everybody
Saturday, April 19, 2008
Friday, April 18, 2008
Nothing
- that I'd like to state publicly about tonight other than I walked a lot and I got to see the moon for four hours surrounded by wilderland.
I'm pretty beat so I'm gonna take it easy tonight. Maybe draw something on my graffiti wall. I'll try and get some ideas down for that new story arch. This one's not as simple or childish so I think it'll work out better for everyone.
I'm pretty beat so I'm gonna take it easy tonight. Maybe draw something on my graffiti wall. I'll try and get some ideas down for that new story arch. This one's not as simple or childish so I think it'll work out better for everyone.
Thursday, April 17, 2008
Service...
... to myself and others.
Mainly others, since my life is controlled indirectly by our society at least.
That doesn't have much to do with anything really lol. I have a lot of homework to do. I just finished the report I should have done a week ago annnnnd, now I'm tired w/ other work to do.
Mainly others, since my life is controlled indirectly by our society at least.
That doesn't have much to do with anything really lol. I have a lot of homework to do. I just finished the report I should have done a week ago annnnnd, now I'm tired w/ other work to do.
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
Sry guys
I have a chance to sleep tonight. Think I'm gonna take it.
However I'd like to use this time to regretfully inform you that I've scrapped the story script I'd started. I do plan on continuing with the project, but I just couldn't get the feel I wanted with the script and my art isn't toned enough to bring that out on its own yet. Gimme some time, it's almost vacation and the work's piled up high for the next few days.
[EDIT] Someone remind me to tell you about today tomorrow lol. But say yesterday since today will the the yesterday of tomorrow's today, eventually.
However I'd like to use this time to regretfully inform you that I've scrapped the story script I'd started. I do plan on continuing with the project, but I just couldn't get the feel I wanted with the script and my art isn't toned enough to bring that out on its own yet. Gimme some time, it's almost vacation and the work's piled up high for the next few days.
[EDIT] Someone remind me to tell you about today tomorrow lol. But say yesterday since today will the the yesterday of tomorrow's today, eventually.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
Tuesday Night
-Yawn-
Ordinary school day I guess. Nothing really spectacular happened. Got to do some practice graffiti with a friend mine(on paper) since I'm tryin' to pick it up on top of what I'm already doing. It's a bad habit of mine to start something great and then get delayed because I come up with ideas that I know I need to get down before I forget them. Makes me a bit unreliable sometimes ;;^^
Um.. got to here a great speaker at my church tonight for a pre-confimation thing. It was pretty good, he was a funny guy. Lots of props and double kudos to that priest.
Other than that I've been dying to get some sleep so I think I'm gonna head up soon.
Night everyone :D
Ordinary school day I guess. Nothing really spectacular happened. Got to do some practice graffiti with a friend mine(on paper) since I'm tryin' to pick it up on top of what I'm already doing. It's a bad habit of mine to start something great and then get delayed because I come up with ideas that I know I need to get down before I forget them. Makes me a bit unreliable sometimes ;;^^
Um.. got to here a great speaker at my church tonight for a pre-confimation thing. It was pretty good, he was a funny guy. Lots of props and double kudos to that priest.
Other than that I've been dying to get some sleep so I think I'm gonna head up soon.
Night everyone :D
Monday, April 14, 2008
ZOMG NO FILLER! You meanie, Billy! >:[
Sry viewers...er... viewer XD
I was out all day: Drivers Ed, home, eating supper, my Nana's birthday, home, had to help someone w/ something I promised and now I'm utterly swamped with work soooo.. Nothin' to show tonight.
I was out all day: Drivers Ed, home, eating supper, my Nana's birthday, home, had to help someone w/ something I promised and now I'm utterly swamped with work soooo.. Nothin' to show tonight.
Sunday, April 13, 2008
Oh world, why do you corrupt my memory?
Ahaha, stress on me is only noticeable when I tell you or if you happen to notice a slump in my usual... routine; I guess you could call it a routine. Nothing outlined, just my way of doing things.
Well this time the stress of the weekend caused me to fail in remembering to announce the achievement of my 100th post! This is 101..or 102, 102 I believe. I was planning a NLC gathering for my 1, 2, and sometimes 3 views along with whoever else was online, but that apparently didn't happen XD Hm... maybe for my 107th/108th post whoever is on can join me in a poker game via Rounders Poker on ijji :D
Anyway I've got a lot to do. It's my brothers birthday so I was out for a while while we went out to eat and whatnot.
Well this time the stress of the weekend caused me to fail in remembering to announce the achievement of my 100th post! This is 101..or 102, 102 I believe. I was planning a NLC gathering for my 1, 2, and sometimes 3 views along with whoever else was online, but that apparently didn't happen XD Hm... maybe for my 107th/108th post whoever is on can join me in a poker game via Rounders Poker on ijji :D
Anyway I've got a lot to do. It's my brothers birthday so I was out for a while while we went out to eat and whatnot.
Saturday, April 12, 2008
OH CRUEL FATE!
WHY HAST THOU FORSAKEN ME!???
Such a day I had. Terror, irony, laughable, physic, and painfull
Got robbed last night. Thieves broke into my brother's and my mother's cars. Stole her GPS and my Dad's $100 sunglasses and for what ever reason they took the Jimmy Buffet CD that was on the dashboard...
On top of that, my backpack that was in my brother's is now gone. Thankfully they emptied out my books and papers. From what I can derive I have mostly everything. There may have been some old papers in there that they didn't bother digging out. Funny though how they even went though the small pockets and things and took out my bible and small things I had in the side pockets and whatnot. The most obvious conclusion for taking that is most likely to carry the other shit they stole. After all they went around the whole block looking for unlocked cars. (Brother left the car unlocked and I have no explanation for why my mom's car didn't lock[it locks automatically after a short time])
Finally they made off with my brother's bike and my bag with everything in it. They took the time to re-lock the shed, probably to prevent suspicion, but were stupid enough to not realize that bikes leave tracks in the mud ahaha. Got a shoeprint too ;D
Really sucks though.
I hope this reminds you of that post yesterday where I ranted about the evil in this town and my optimism and patience. IRONY or PREMONITION!?! WEIRD AS FUCK. It's crazy how many things almost prevented this from happening. For one, early in the afternoon my friend(online) asked me to do him a favor and put his ipod charger in my bag right then because I'd forgotten it that morning and he knew I'd forget over the weekend. I got the charger and put it with my stuff, but looked out the window and that car and said "Eh, it's Friday, Ill get it later. No big..." Then my dad tells me to get some of my stuff to put it in my bag; I ignored it...
Last night I gave up on writing when my laptop overheated and I lost the file completely. I'm usually up until 3 or 4 and my cars are within eyeshot but I didn't stay up last night.
Earlier that day I'd put my bag in my brother's before walking home. I ended up seeing my mom and she asked me where it was and if I wanted to get it before we left. I said naw I'll get it out later...
Ug! So many signs and I ignored them all. Honestly I felt something when left it there. Like something wasn't right. Nothing logically was wrong so I left it there.
But anyway, this day just went from bad, to alright, to worse, and to worst.
After a shocking wakeup, I came downstairs very early and having gotten very little sleep. Of course there'd be no food in the house. The sun came out and I remembered the beauty of the world for the first time this spring. My cousin, brother, and I went walking through the wood and enjoying the warm weather exploring. Then the temperature dropped quickly and rain picked up. We were forced in. All of our usual group of friends was busy. We stayed in bored. Eventually we went to the mall to meet some of my friends. Wasn't bad but I hate the mall and I really couldn't enjoy myself there. So few people speak English in there anymore it nearly scared me. I was reminded of my poorness and didn't buy anything there. When we finally left we headed out to the car my brother was waiting to drive us home. Lucky me got my fingers slammed in the door as my cousin raced for shotgun... Yay me.
Now I'm tired and my earlier motivation has just been shot dead. I'm not angry or upset or anything it's just that the day was so stressful on me physically.
Oh! And on top of all that my good computer has a virus, Malware rather, called "AntiSpywareDeluxe" which boasts "the best antispyware ever" which is such an obvious turn off it's like the creator didn't even try. I bite my thumb at the creator.
Got any suggestions for removing it non-manually let me know. Spyware Doctor is good and most recommended but buying something is not an option for me.
Such a day I had. Terror, irony, laughable, physic, and painfull
Got robbed last night. Thieves broke into my brother's and my mother's cars. Stole her GPS and my Dad's $100 sunglasses and for what ever reason they took the Jimmy Buffet CD that was on the dashboard...
On top of that, my backpack that was in my brother's is now gone. Thankfully they emptied out my books and papers. From what I can derive I have mostly everything. There may have been some old papers in there that they didn't bother digging out. Funny though how they even went though the small pockets and things and took out my bible and small things I had in the side pockets and whatnot. The most obvious conclusion for taking that is most likely to carry the other shit they stole. After all they went around the whole block looking for unlocked cars. (Brother left the car unlocked and I have no explanation for why my mom's car didn't lock[it locks automatically after a short time])
Finally they made off with my brother's bike and my bag with everything in it. They took the time to re-lock the shed, probably to prevent suspicion, but were stupid enough to not realize that bikes leave tracks in the mud ahaha. Got a shoeprint too ;D
Really sucks though.
I hope this reminds you of that post yesterday where I ranted about the evil in this town and my optimism and patience. IRONY or PREMONITION!?! WEIRD AS FUCK. It's crazy how many things almost prevented this from happening. For one, early in the afternoon my friend(online) asked me to do him a favor and put his ipod charger in my bag right then because I'd forgotten it that morning and he knew I'd forget over the weekend. I got the charger and put it with my stuff, but looked out the window and that car and said "Eh, it's Friday, Ill get it later. No big..." Then my dad tells me to get some of my stuff to put it in my bag; I ignored it...
Last night I gave up on writing when my laptop overheated and I lost the file completely. I'm usually up until 3 or 4 and my cars are within eyeshot but I didn't stay up last night.
Earlier that day I'd put my bag in my brother's before walking home. I ended up seeing my mom and she asked me where it was and if I wanted to get it before we left. I said naw I'll get it out later...
Ug! So many signs and I ignored them all. Honestly I felt something when left it there. Like something wasn't right. Nothing logically was wrong so I left it there.
But anyway, this day just went from bad, to alright, to worse, and to worst.
After a shocking wakeup, I came downstairs very early and having gotten very little sleep. Of course there'd be no food in the house. The sun came out and I remembered the beauty of the world for the first time this spring. My cousin, brother, and I went walking through the wood and enjoying the warm weather exploring. Then the temperature dropped quickly and rain picked up. We were forced in. All of our usual group of friends was busy. We stayed in bored. Eventually we went to the mall to meet some of my friends. Wasn't bad but I hate the mall and I really couldn't enjoy myself there. So few people speak English in there anymore it nearly scared me. I was reminded of my poorness and didn't buy anything there. When we finally left we headed out to the car my brother was waiting to drive us home. Lucky me got my fingers slammed in the door as my cousin raced for shotgun... Yay me.
Now I'm tired and my earlier motivation has just been shot dead. I'm not angry or upset or anything it's just that the day was so stressful on me physically.
Oh! And on top of all that my good computer has a virus, Malware rather, called "AntiSpywareDeluxe" which boasts "the best antispyware ever" which is such an obvious turn off it's like the creator didn't even try. I bite my thumb at the creator.
Got any suggestions for removing it non-manually let me know. Spyware Doctor is good and most recommended but buying something is not an option for me.
Friday, April 11, 2008
Weeeeeeeeeee've all been lost for most of this liiiife,
and everywhere we turn more hatred surrounds us.
And I know: most of us will stay right.
I plan to. Ya know, I almost felt like Yagami Light did when he first found the death note. There seems to be no where out there where someone's just not being ignorant or just frankly being an asshole. But, I contrast myself from KIRA greatly. I've got a lot of hope for this world. I can only pride myself on my patience and my optimism. I don't mean for this post to be all physiological and such, it's just been a long day. It wasn't even a bad day, honestly. I hardly know the meaning of bad days anyway! Lookin' though this blog I can only find a few myself XD Alright I'm gonna back away from that topic. Just a spur of the moment thing really.
I'm back into writing tonight. I've got some pretty sweet ideas to follow up on I really want to include. Got a lot of inspiration lately too. Contests on DA, reading some things, talking to people, listening to music, and I got to look at the sketchbook of a fellow student who's graffiti and traditional artwork was just incredible. He was like one of those people who are really great at something but you'd never expect it. I'm sure his friends must 'ave or he must 'ave wanted to show his graffiti. I wasn't really with his group I was just at the table and snuck a few peeks when he turned pages ahaha. Beastly work, I wanted to commend him.
Anyway, I'm really glad it's Friday. Such a long week comes to close with the reward of a quiet night with my brother out of the house and the room to myself.
Check out my graffiti wall on facebook for some recent stuff and a new spin on real graffiti I'd like to get good at! :D
And I know: most of us will stay right.
I plan to. Ya know, I almost felt like Yagami Light did when he first found the death note. There seems to be no where out there where someone's just not being ignorant or just frankly being an asshole. But, I contrast myself from KIRA greatly. I've got a lot of hope for this world. I can only pride myself on my patience and my optimism. I don't mean for this post to be all physiological and such, it's just been a long day. It wasn't even a bad day, honestly. I hardly know the meaning of bad days anyway! Lookin' though this blog I can only find a few myself XD Alright I'm gonna back away from that topic. Just a spur of the moment thing really.
I'm back into writing tonight. I've got some pretty sweet ideas to follow up on I really want to include. Got a lot of inspiration lately too. Contests on DA, reading some things, talking to people, listening to music, and I got to look at the sketchbook of a fellow student who's graffiti and traditional artwork was just incredible. He was like one of those people who are really great at something but you'd never expect it. I'm sure his friends must 'ave or he must 'ave wanted to show his graffiti. I wasn't really with his group I was just at the table and snuck a few peeks when he turned pages ahaha. Beastly work, I wanted to commend him.
Anyway, I'm really glad it's Friday. Such a long week comes to close with the reward of a quiet night with my brother out of the house and the room to myself.
Check out my graffiti wall on facebook for some recent stuff and a new spin on real graffiti I'd like to get good at! :D
Thursday, April 10, 2008
Short post for now.
I've got a lot to do tonight. Cant say anything super interesting happened today really. I'm gonna try to say a bit later but it looks like I'm in a for a few hours more of homework.
Wednesday, April 9, 2008
Normality ensues.
Yet another normal day in the books for me. I guess there's a few things I could say about the day though. Hm.. for starters, my mother decreed that she's no longer purchasing cold-cuts for sandwiches until I cut my hair off. That's getting annoying. It's been a week with only peanut butter for me. However I've resolved to outlast her. Only two months left of school anyway XD
Um.. I got to see a pretty interesting copy of the Book of Kells today. It's an ancient Christian book that was recovered in Ireland. Held my interest for the good 2 minutes I got to look at it.
Hm... my lab was beastly. I think I did it close to perfect. I even got the exact percentage expected with 0% error. Pretty niiice. Lab reports are the only thing keeping my chemistry grade alive right now. Although chapter 8 doesn't look too dreadful as of yet.
I'm having driver's ed three days a week now so as to finish before vacation. Took a test in there today. I think I aced it. It's really annoying to be in that room for the class though because 16 out of the 19 in the class are extremely loud and obnoxious and make me kind of annoyed that these are the people I'm gonna be contemporaries with on the road.
Hung around with a few friends in the hallway until about 5. People give odd looks at the girl who always comes to sit around with us since seeing girls is so rare in the halls ahaha.
So I drove home today. Interesting experience. I'm not a super great driver but I'm improving thankfully. Be able to drive friends at the latest next October. Don't quote me on that please. I'll tag this post with "license" so it can be looked back on to yell at me XD
Got home, went to youth group, made fun of my friend because she went tanning and looked like a cherry, went home, did homework, and here I am.
Guess that's it. Kind of a fact-fact-fact post but I figure I'd best make this worth checking once in a while.
See you space cowboy...
Um.. I got to see a pretty interesting copy of the Book of Kells today. It's an ancient Christian book that was recovered in Ireland. Held my interest for the good 2 minutes I got to look at it.
Hm... my lab was beastly. I think I did it close to perfect. I even got the exact percentage expected with 0% error. Pretty niiice. Lab reports are the only thing keeping my chemistry grade alive right now. Although chapter 8 doesn't look too dreadful as of yet.
I'm having driver's ed three days a week now so as to finish before vacation. Took a test in there today. I think I aced it. It's really annoying to be in that room for the class though because 16 out of the 19 in the class are extremely loud and obnoxious and make me kind of annoyed that these are the people I'm gonna be contemporaries with on the road.
Hung around with a few friends in the hallway until about 5. People give odd looks at the girl who always comes to sit around with us since seeing girls is so rare in the halls ahaha.
So I drove home today. Interesting experience. I'm not a super great driver but I'm improving thankfully. Be able to drive friends at the latest next October. Don't quote me on that please. I'll tag this post with "license" so it can be looked back on to yell at me XD
Got home, went to youth group, made fun of my friend because she went tanning and looked like a cherry, went home, did homework, and here I am.
Guess that's it. Kind of a fact-fact-fact post but I figure I'd best make this worth checking once in a while.
See you space cowboy...
Tuesday, April 8, 2008
Yawwwwnnn
Fairly normal day. Actually.. completely normal day. Nothing interesting at all happened. I'm about done with my lab and I'm not anticipating too late of a night. I'm considering leaving days like this out of my blog.
Monday, April 7, 2008
ouch
[EDIT] FILLER! Again... it's coming along slowly. Filler's just keep my motivation going.
Failed chem. It was bad, I'm not even going to repeat my grade. It's only slightly encouraging that amidst my 2+ hours of studying and another 2+ in the morning that a few people still did worse than I. And to do worse than I did is almost an accomplishment.
Ah well, retakes all around! Minus the kid who got a 110%! Congrats to him though. It's really hard for most of us.
Anyway, doing math homework now. Other than that I have a history test tomorrow. That shouldn't be too bad so long as I review my notes beforehand.
Normal school day today. Driver's ED afterwards.. really tired.
I learned today that if you have long hair you can't fall asleep when it's still damp from the shower. = really annoying to deal with XD
Gonna finish up this math and type out the beginning of my lab report tonight. It's due Wednesday thank God but I'll be dying if I don't start it tonight.
Failed chem. It was bad, I'm not even going to repeat my grade. It's only slightly encouraging that amidst my 2+ hours of studying and another 2+ in the morning that a few people still did worse than I. And to do worse than I did is almost an accomplishment.
Ah well, retakes all around! Minus the kid who got a 110%! Congrats to him though. It's really hard for most of us.
Anyway, doing math homework now. Other than that I have a history test tomorrow. That shouldn't be too bad so long as I review my notes beforehand.
Normal school day today. Driver's ED afterwards.. really tired.
I learned today that if you have long hair you can't fall asleep when it's still damp from the shower. = really annoying to deal with XD
Gonna finish up this math and type out the beginning of my lab report tonight. It's due Wednesday thank God but I'll be dying if I don't start it tonight.
Sunday, April 6, 2008
Saturday, April 5, 2008
Traversing the Great Lands of Yonder Malden
Such an adventure had befallen today that to the unenlightened ear on to the geography of a once great Malden it would fear to be deceived. Alas, Tis the truth! Across the deepened woodland and across the rivers of old three young boys, of the race of men, constructed a monument fit for a summer's stay. For you see, I, among the three, hast come before thine computer screen to tell you the tale that would lead for a greater tomorrow!
Ah, yes, such an adventure the still frames of it clash together in front of my minds eye. Simple, it began, as the three left their beloved home in search of sustenance that could not be brought forth from the family's stocks. Traveling proved no challenge as the arrived at the far of land of Richdale Convenience in good merchantry. With what they could muster in coinage they each quenched their famish with good drink such as Arizona and Fanta, no lies! Upon leaving they soon reached the remaining woodland in a town now bustling with the convenience of a modern age. But with no such convenience did these boys carry, no! They scaled the slippery slopes covered with deadened leaves and rotting lumber. Fighting their way through fierce fields of bloodsucking winged varmints and scaling yet again a cliff that would take them most high. On the cliffs edge I fell, catching myself as an instant reaction to preserve a life with such few adventure that a simple fall would not serve as an end. With all might the three reached the top; opening a view over a vast stretch of rare yet an unmanned land. Remnants of men lay rusted on their path before but here it seemed the world had remained untouched; even surrounded by town no more than a miles off in any way, and only closer still. fair pools, a hands deep, lay scattered. The captured rainwater upon the smoothened rock face proved useful for cleansing their hands and faces. It was here, they decided, that a monument be built: a fire pit, no a fireplace rather! And so it was. With ample seating, supplies, and dreams, a place for fire was built in preparation for a midsummer's evening whereas friends could gather without fear for a night of warmth and fun. Pleased with their work, the three laid in the sun until afternoon had set in. They returned home joyously. A secret was theirs, and so I make it known to those who will not see it in their days that I am content with what we have accomplished.
Ant that is the story.
Hopefully that was entertaining XD
I'm home alone tonight for a another few hours I'm guessing so I figured I'd best put in a worth post seeing as I haven't in a while.
Good night world.
Ah, yes, such an adventure the still frames of it clash together in front of my minds eye. Simple, it began, as the three left their beloved home in search of sustenance that could not be brought forth from the family's stocks. Traveling proved no challenge as the arrived at the far of land of Richdale Convenience in good merchantry. With what they could muster in coinage they each quenched their famish with good drink such as Arizona and Fanta, no lies! Upon leaving they soon reached the remaining woodland in a town now bustling with the convenience of a modern age. But with no such convenience did these boys carry, no! They scaled the slippery slopes covered with deadened leaves and rotting lumber. Fighting their way through fierce fields of bloodsucking winged varmints and scaling yet again a cliff that would take them most high. On the cliffs edge I fell, catching myself as an instant reaction to preserve a life with such few adventure that a simple fall would not serve as an end. With all might the three reached the top; opening a view over a vast stretch of rare yet an unmanned land. Remnants of men lay rusted on their path before but here it seemed the world had remained untouched; even surrounded by town no more than a miles off in any way, and only closer still. fair pools, a hands deep, lay scattered. The captured rainwater upon the smoothened rock face proved useful for cleansing their hands and faces. It was here, they decided, that a monument be built: a fire pit, no a fireplace rather! And so it was. With ample seating, supplies, and dreams, a place for fire was built in preparation for a midsummer's evening whereas friends could gather without fear for a night of warmth and fun. Pleased with their work, the three laid in the sun until afternoon had set in. They returned home joyously. A secret was theirs, and so I make it known to those who will not see it in their days that I am content with what we have accomplished.
Ant that is the story.
Hopefully that was entertaining XD
I'm home alone tonight for a another few hours I'm guessing so I figured I'd best put in a worth post seeing as I haven't in a while.
Good night world.
Friday, April 4, 2008
Thursday, April 3, 2008
Um..
it's my fault tonight that I have to keep this short. I wasn't loaded too badly tonight but there's a funny story to why I'm even awake right now. See, after school I put my backpack in my brother's car so he'd just drive it home to me around 4:30. That way I could walk home. It was beautiful out, relatively at least(I consider 50 degrees t-shirt weather ahaha), and so I walked. Got home, my brother and friend were there. They have off tomorrow for some reason I'm not sure of. I planned to get my backpack at the usual time when he got home, get a few subjects done, and then go to the MC rugby game tonight. As it turns out, my brother was out volunteering for something of some sort and wouldn't be home until 8:30. Hence, I went to the game anyway since it was at 6 and I figured it'd work out alright. It did, and so here I am doing it after collapsing from getting home.
The game was great, but there were no more than 10 spectators. Two fellow students, one I knew, wrapped in blankets, and then my group of me, Steven, Stephen, and Brittany. It was a great game as I said but the temperature dropped dramatically and we were all in light sweatshirts from the weather earlier. We talked and joked a lot. I listened to an hour-long recording of something rather personal that I won't discuss here, and we huddled together and watched the game pretty much XD Oh yeah, we went to Papa Gino's for some mozzarellas sticks ahaha.
Well, that post was remotely short lol
The game was great, but there were no more than 10 spectators. Two fellow students, one I knew, wrapped in blankets, and then my group of me, Steven, Stephen, and Brittany. It was a great game as I said but the temperature dropped dramatically and we were all in light sweatshirts from the weather earlier. We talked and joked a lot. I listened to an hour-long recording of something rather personal that I won't discuss here, and we huddled together and watched the game pretty much XD Oh yeah, we went to Papa Gino's for some mozzarellas sticks ahaha.
Well, that post was remotely short lol
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
I hate doin' this...
...but... I gotta keep it short tonight. I have two more subjects to do on top of this English because my sleep schedule is so effed up and I've just been so dead after school these days. Also last night when I was in a similar predicament, I studied my chemistry really hard but I still only managed a 29 out of 50. It's killing my grade more and more, and slowly at that, but it's getting consistent and I really can't waste any of my time tonight.
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
Lots of stuff happenin'!
LIES! April fools.
In all seriousness I just got a ton of homework and because I was dying to get some sleep earlier I'm choosing to be lazy tonight.
In all seriousness I just got a ton of homework and because I was dying to get some sleep earlier I'm choosing to be lazy tonight.
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